I just feel so exhausted today, I just want to go home. I feel so gross, so ugly, so invisible. . . I wish I didn't feel this way; so scared of speaking, feeling stupid after every little thing I say. I do not now what to do anymore. Should I give up? Or fake this confidence I have put up for months now.
3 Libras is in my head right now by A Perfect Circle. When he repeats "You Don't See Me." at the climax of the beautiful song, I can't help but cry. Everywhere I go, I feel that same way. From the classroom, to family life. . .to guys, I feel like I don't even exist, like I am wasting space.
I really don't want to feel like this anymore, I really, really don't. I'm just tired you know.
